PART 1 OF A RESTLESS DREAM.
I woke up from a restless dream. I can’t remember what day it is. Wait a minute, where am I? I turn to my left, feeling a sense of heat and a trickle of sweat behind my neck. Instead of my bedroom window I see a huge iron door, open and guarded outside by… What are those things?
Ghosts? I panic. Could this be another of my weird dreams? Wake up! Okay, pinch yourself. It works in movies. Should work. Uh-oh… I can’t lift my arm. Okay, this is definitely a bad dream. I am trying to call my mother, Amm…aa…, No sound. Only a hoarse, tiny sound coming from the inside of me. In a fraction of second my mind plays a series of images from the different horror movies I had watched. Grudge. A green, pale boy on the side of my bed. The Ring. I am getting my soul sucked by some long-haired girl. Excorcist. Am I possessed?? Or is this Buffalo Bill’s doing? Is he going to skin me alive to stitch a gown for himself?? Heck, what’s happening?
Turning left. Same door. Same two figures. I squint my eyes to get a clear vision. Oh, damn.. Where are my glasses? I’ve got short-sight! I can’t see! No wonder they look like ghosts. Chuckle. I try to call out Hey! Hey! Still no sound. I slowly turn my head to the right. Holy… My mouth goes dry, I can feel the tip of my fingers go cold. My stomach turns into a knot, my heart races…
And… My imagination stops.
Later. 😀
My Friend, My Mind
You take a decision-
Why don’t you run it?
Considering is fair,
But considering not to
run,what you believe is unfair.
Why are you so scared?
My whole future
depends on you;
Your heart is mine.
Give me your trust,
And I’ll give you mine.
Let us not forget
we both are one.
Let us walk the perils brave,
Let me be your trusted friend.
All odds we shall face,
All joys are ours to embrace.
Give me your trust,
And I’ll give you mine.
For you are my Mind,
Let us live for us..
Annabel Lee
One of my favorite Poem is Annabel Lee written by the American Poet Edgar Allan Poe. I remember reading it when I was much younger and found it striking immediately. The poem , as I have understood, is a lament of a lover whose love has been taken away. Their love was so strong and pure that the Angels above got jealous and took the bride away..! (to death)
Can not, a love so strong go ahead without any obstacles? Is the evil-eye for real? The poet has beautifully written the lines , that the reader can clearly picture each of them and feel the pain of the two lovers.
Two lovers who knew nothing but to love each other immensely and death came in the form of a chilled wind and broke their hearts,stole their dreams.
Annabel Lee is the star and the bride in this poem. Lovely name too. The narrator(her lover) is reminded of Annabel Lee as he lies by the tomb by the sea..
The theme is somewhat childish love, the love during youth. And therefore it contains a lot of romantic emotions and is expressed gently. Reading this poem is sure to give you a nostalgic feeling..
When I read it the first time I truly wished for a true love to happen soon sometime in my life! 🙂 (one without objections)
Annabel Lee
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.
Edgar Allan Poe
Keeping in touch with my random thoughts
When am completelyy jobless (which if very often nowadays) I sit and wonder how amazing life works. Start with our human-body itself. He who created us is definately an Artist. 🙂 Artist with no flaws. the way our body works, its organs..and how a woman reproduces etc.. I only know what I learnt in Science class in school, but am sure there’s more explanation to everything around and inside us! I also feel sad thinkng how , sometimes, quickly death comes and takes this beautiful being away. Death. What is this thing we named ‘Death’? What does this word refer to? Death is when we stop breathing? Death is when we lose alot of blood, closes our eyes and go to a deep sleep? When we die, do we actually DIE? Or are we transferred to another planet? What happens after our body is cremated/buried? Maybe great thinkers/scholars etc have the answers and am unaware of it… 
true that?
I have got more questions. And am sure majority of you out there must have had these in mind too.. Like, what is beyond our Universe? I have seen videos of U.F.O sightings, Crop Circles, Alien Abduction…are they really true? Oh come on, I knw some of you would badly want to tell me,’ Why dont you go find it out urself? Do a research!’. Am Lazy. ok? So let me just blab! I dont care if I sound like a kid. …..So, these videos. Are they man-madE? There are soome looneys who wanna show that they are cool, awsome, and so on and make a fool of others… Did Aliens ever come to Earth and abduct humans and cattles?! :-O what for?? Scary… I saw Aliens v/s Predators the other day and thought it would be really ‘exciting’ if one of them comes to town! 😛 hehe
There are other scary things happening around us that actually, is very scary. Earthquakes, wars, diseases…. I look at the newspaper and find death in ‘variety’ of forms! Am serious! What not happens… Strange and unexpected ways of dying… Lucky just to wake up in the morning alive! Sigh…
Questions, questions, questions! Tell my Why? Tell me More!? So many things unanswered…
How absurd..for me, maybe not for you! [ P.S these are random-scribbly-grammaticaly incorrect- thoughts ] { Do a L.O.L please! }
– I am walking ( be it anywhere) and i find people staring at my legs!! NO i dont wear short skirts or ..leaves!! They just stare…as if cheking out the way I walk….? Yeah? Is it so? No? Then why? No i dont have wobbly legs , they are perfect mind you!
– While travelling in train I tend to…i..stare at people eating. 😀 especially if they have bought food from home.ya know..home made food… No iam not a freak! Its nice…hehe. And u know what else? Iam very conscious eating in train. 🙂
Have you travelled in trains in India? A wonder eh? Chaai Chaai…i-ss-kk-ett juiicee..thats biscuit & juice ,.. 😛 tats how the vendors call them out… ahh… So…. ok next-
– I suddenly can’t think of anything else but how Brian and Stewie talks to each other in Family Guy… FUUNNYYYYY
– Gawwd,,you must be thinking am an idiot to put these in a blog! Or probably you must have already closed this page.
– heyyyy..your still here. Awsome.
– I am bored
– I hate mosquitoes.
– Soaps… I dont watch Soap Operas…my grandparents do. And when they watching it inside, in the living room, I can hear the dialogues sitting outside …porch, remember?? So, I dont really have to sit in front of the Television. got it? I know all the stories by now. .. Ooh.. somethings happening to that girl…. wait
– Am sorry guys,I am in no mood to type a proper, make-sense post here tonight. huh? then why couldnt i just leave the blog? NO! This,I like.
– i am having fun!
– would you…hmm..leave comments? please? be nice okay? 😀 I am nice!
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Dorian Gray – A Critical Review, and what not.
I watched Dorian Gray recently, and believe me, I could not sleep that night. It was not because I got scared seeing the movie, or I was disgusted with it.. Iam just amazed by the way the movie has been portrayed
It’s brilliant concept, and how neatly and amazingly (am sorry I don’t get other words at the moment) the actors have done their roles.. wow
Was it the man’s need to get attention, or was it just his childhood torment that made him get influenced by the jealous Henry’s words or was it just meant to be
” or perhaps ill nail my soul to the devil’s altar..” ( from the movie)- to remain young and beautiful.. forever…
Does getting weary or old scare every man equally? I did come across something called the Dorian-Syndrome… – how some people get this phobia , scare of getting ugly,old and go for cosmetic surgeries and what not. So did MJ have this syndrome? ( m sorry, if that was blunt
Now what makes us feel so conscious about our looks? Why are we chasing behind the ‘remain-young’ formulas all the time? Are these the Devil’s act, just like its shown in Dorian Gray? In the hurry to get young / beautiful / fair etc.. what we lose is our inner charm, ourselves. All these actors get plastic surgery on almost every part of their body, for what? Attention? Fame? The ‘ooh’ looks from others? I know I personally have no complete right to question them. I myself sometimes look at the mirror and feel ugly
But I have ruled out the option of plastic-surgery( thank God) or any other costly remedy. .instead I try our natural remedies… 😀
Oh well.. what all people do to remain beautiful.. Young girls try the hardest to earn the love of their lovers… like in the Korean movie 500 pounds Beauty, a fat girl goes through this heavy plastic-surgery from top to bottom, becomes oh so slim and beautiful, only to finally realize that the man of her dreams loved her soul , her inner-self than what was on the outside… how rejected she must have felt! Or maybe not.. because ultimately they both did have a happy ending.
Coming back to Dorian Gray.. I still am not able to forget those scenes of what happened to the guy after he exchanged his soul to his life-like portrait. He calls himself ‘God’ thereafter. Vanity I should say. Oscar Wilde surely had something in mind while writing this novel. Was he himself going through that fear of getting old or the complex of being unattractive?
Maybe it was his honest attempt to show to the world that , really, Vanity kills you.
And it does. Promise. Its not your looks or the amount of money that matters, its your character that rules. ( I know I know, character does not get you food to eat or clothes to wear, but …don’t you get it
Try to remain simple. Heart and looks. Everything else will come to you on their own. And about getting old, trust me it wont hurt! (hope so ) Getting old is not God’s was of punishing us out of jealousy, it is the way life goes. Accept the truth. YOU WILL GET OLD SOMEDAY. Rule out those cosmetic surgeries and other treatments that would only give you an artificial aura. Life is beautiful as it is
Picture of Dorian Gray
( Let me now go stand in front of the mirror and try to admire myself )
i try hard to let go of you
smthng has tied the knot so tight.
wenever i try to let you go,
sm force pushes you back to me.
i dont intend to keep u with me
or hurt you..
i wish to giv u ur freedom;
i dont know why…
ur still with me now
am tryna make u happy
i hope u know i love you
i hope u know i wanna let go of you…
didnt you learn yet?
has not life showed you
what is right
and wrong?
you told yourself
whats best and
whats not;
and still that look of chaos
in your eyes..
your friends told you
'dont'
others told you
'take care'
but you chose
your path,
'let-me-give-it-a-try-again'.
how many things
you wanted to stop,
how many promises
you made;
and again,
again the same mistakes.
If not now, when?
Ask yourself;
close your eyes
and say a small prayer,
(what else to tell you?)
take a deep breath
and please,
atleast this time,
not for your friends
or for the others,
but for yourself..
do it right.
This is your last chance.
Sadly
sadly i keep doin wt m not supposed to do;
wt i have learnt is wrong;
wt is sin;
wt will bring me more sadness..
…sadly
i NEED to STOP
Weird Times
Sometimes when am sad, and feelin lonely, even the most loved ones i dear to have with me, seems so far away..
its funny whn the person you want to be with the most at that time, is not with you!.. they do not do it intentionaly, but it so happens… and it hurts.
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"the sedge has withered from the lake... 